Saturday, April 9, 2005









Well I bet you all thought I dropped off the face of the earth. Well at this point that sounds like fun. I am surprised you all have not given up on me...I pretty much have.

I have had no motivation for life itself much less keeping up with my journal. I miss my journal a great deal....I get to say what I want and when I want and sometimes just putting things down on paper or puter helps sort things out. But I do not have the energy for even that. But enough of me for a bit.

So much has gone on in the world around me that I am still amazed at what has happened...first:
It breaks my heart that Pope John Paul II has passed away. He is pretty much the only Pope I have known...I really loved hearing about his trips and his messages of hope and his reaching out to young people...that all will be sadly missed

I am sad that he is gone...but Happy at the beautiful life he led and what he meant to so many people....he is the true meaning behind living life to its' fullest.

Now the next story just blew me away....that is about Terri...

of course it would figure that florida had to be the state that all this controversy took place....My personal feeling on all this is that the whole issue should have stayed within the families....not for the politicians...I am a firm believer that I do not want the government in my personal business. I think the will to live or personal. The only thing that confuses me is why didn't the husband just let the parents care for her.....if they wanted to take that on...I do not understand that. Then again I do not think that the public really knows everything....they has got to be some pieces is so sad that she is gone...but I do pray that all those involved will find some sort of peace with it all.

Okay....believe it or not I finally left the house for an actual appointment with my doctor....he was shocked to see me because I just keep cancelling out of my appointments. The thought of going out anywhere has only gotten worse.
Well I think the doc finally figured out that I am afraid to go out and the anxiety I go through is he prescribed me another medication which is a straight tranquilizer that I am suppose to take 20 minutes before leaving the house and see if it helps.God I hope so.

Again I missed another outing to my parents house. I just could not go....but hopefully now things with me will calm down....I take so much GARBAGE in medications to calm me down and prevent my lungs from working over time that I feel like a walking zombie. Again my hunnie has been a dream come true and is sooooooo patient and understanding...I know I would not have made it this far if it was not for him...he really gives me strength and support beyond my comprehension.

MORE boys celebrated their birthday on the 26th of march.....they turned 20. I cannot believe how old that makes me feel......but they were happy campers. My son who lives south of us even came up for a visit...I have some pics of him that I will share next time...I was just glad to see that he was good and doing well.
EVEN MORE CRAZY NEWS...remember my sister in law that used to live with us...well she left around when the hurricanes hit...thinking life was better someplace she actually came to get her personal belongings. She just assumed we were going to store her things forever....BUT she called one day when she did not think my hunnie was home and he answered the phone...and he gave her one week to come get her things or he was going to burn them...well that chic made it here in 5 days and it took her about 4 hours to load her junk...BUT I am thrilled to finally have her stuff out of here. She is a real piece of life. That stress is finally does my heart good.

I cannot believe that the month of April is actually here...time is moving way too fast for me...I seem to be missing alot out of life. It is starting to get to me.
Well I think that is enough news to catch everyone up on what is going on with me....I hope you will hang in there with me...if not--I understand. hug someone you LOVE....PEACE!!!!


photographybymon said...

Remembering to hug a friend --> ((((((((((Ellie))))))))))  I didn't think you feel off the face of the earth.  It's always good to hear from you when you are able and willing to write.  Keeping you in my continued prayers.


my78novata said...

well I sure hope you get better. Must be an aweful feeling. As far as your hubby and sister and belongings GOOD FOR HIM> way to go. Somepeople seem to think that others are a storage barn. Todds son did and now a few others. cause we have a garage!!!!!!! WELL Im sick of it. get your own place buds!!!!!!!!!!!! We work hard to have what we have. Well concerning Terry. Yeah I would not want to lIVE she did but what is worse to me would be dying like she did. The thing is that sometime between day one in the hosptial when she was getting better and Day six her MRI scans changed. Suddenly she had been hit in the head and had head trauma!!!!!!!!!! Strange I think. I also agree why did he not let the parents take her??????????? WELL see the longer she lived the more money she ate up. The less for him. I read court transcripts of HIS now this is HIS words  when he had his deposition on the web site. This is word for word from the transcriptionist........HE did tell the nurses not to care for a kideny problem. He said he knew had she not been treated she would die!!!!!!!!!!!  That is a horribly painful way to die. Then his actions after her death not wanting the parents to know where she was buried and them having to go to court show his true self not to mention the fact that he would not let them be there for her final moments!!!!!!!!!!

csandhollow said...

As far as Terri, the parents did take her for a time and then placed her in a nursing home.
I do hope that you are able to get things going again. Been missing you.

onestrangecat said...

I can't believe how fast this year has been moving.
I totally understand about anexity.  I am finding it harder to go places and do things that I used to do.


dcmeyer420 said...

Sometimes we all need to take some hiatus from blogging. It's nice to hear from you again. Welcome back!

mkolasa101 said...

As far as Terri goes..if in fact it is true that the parents were caring for her and put her in a nursing home....that says an alful lot doesn't it? A great deal of what pushed them to point blame at the husband must have been their own guilt they felt for not being able to follow through with what they started, taking care of their daughter at home.  Life eternal doesn't happen here in this one lifetime, it goes on and on and on spiritually.  At last Terri is at peace, let us pray that the parents will stop this madness and seek peace in their life as well.