Thursday, June 29, 2006








Sorry folks…no excuses…just too down and out to sit here and write anything. I really hate when I go through these phases or whatever they may be called…it takes such a long time to just start functioning in some sort of normal fashion.

I have been trying to stay positive and think good things but things seem to overwhelm me too easily.

Today I seem to be ok. I have been again sleeping a whole lot but Allen says that after I have slept a lot I seem so much more calmer and relax…I think he is right. Maybe that is my body’s way of healing…I do not know.

I have been trying to keep up with everyone’s journal…that also sometimes makes me feel overwhelmed…I am pathetic!!

Okay…First…it is HOT AND HUMID here in the sunshine state. This summer is already becoming unbearable. The AC is such a relief. My heart really goes out to those that have to work in this heat…Just crazy.

We have no special plans for the forth of July. We will probably buy our own lil kit of fireworks and do our own thing as we do every year. Also the racetrack near us has fireworks and we have the perfect seat in our front yard. We might bar-b-que ..just depends on the weather and what we are in the mood for.

Allen has not gone to work this week. He has called in sick. He has been suffering from severe headaches now for quite some time. The cat scan showed signs that he has been suffering from them but no tumors or such (thank God). However, the doctors cannot seem to get it under control. It makes me feel so totally helpless seeing him in so much pain and there is nothing I can do for him. Of course with the state and the fdle…those excuses are not acceptable in this state. I guess we will see. He has another appointment tomorrow with our regular doctor who referred him to the specialist to see what else can be done. He really is at his wit’s end with the pain.

Along with the summer heat come the storms…so my puter time has been cut down A LOT. The storms here have been hard and fast. The electric has gone on and off but not for long. However I keep the puter off because I do not need a fried piece of electronics.

ß-this is me on most days…LOL. Just had to throwthat one in.

Just to add to my stress level-my puter chair is totally broken. Allen sat in it one night to use my puter when his was not working and he leaned back too far and SNAP…the left handle separated from the back. Well after much wear and tear..both arms are separated and my back is killing me sitting here. I told Allen that when my check comes in the first thing I am getting is a chair. The only vice I have is my puter…it is my life line and not being able to sit at it for any period of time before my back hurting is just not acceptable.

I did manage one early morning to add some photos to my photo album on fotki…I am constantly adding but I WELCOME you all to check it…you can see a bit of my crazed life…LOL. Here is the link  ELLIE’S PHOTOS

Today I received a few more items for my craft obsession. I feel like it is Christmas every time I get a package. I have also managed to do a few more digital scrapbook pages so I am happy with that accomplishment. I know my kids will enjoy these scrapbooks when they have their own families and want to share things from their childhood.

Well – I think I have caught up some with you all. Keep positive thoughts for me. I just want to be able to do normal things…is that asking too much?

Take care of yourselves and remember to show those you LOVE just how much you LOVE them.


Wednesday, June 21, 2006






HEY HEY HEY....I have been kind of stumped about what to write yet again...I really need to write my ideas down and save them for when I do draw blanks...because this is really getting to me.

Just a few things going on here: as you all may or may not illness (the main one being COPD) was brought on by being exposed to black mold in my work place for several years. I sued and won...I, unfortunately have to depend on workman's comp for everything since I sued the insurance according to the judge they have to take care of me until I am at the ripe old age of retirement. (I definitely have many years until then) HOWEVER...I am somewhat at their mercy and very skeptical about dealing with them over anything. Well I finally got tired of it all and I think I already mentioned it....but I am changing my psych doctor...he is much more concerned with money and how many patients he can fit in to a day rather than doing anything useful for me. So I am now waiting on my lawyer to discuss this with WC and find me another doctor. I also had to make another appointment with the pulmonologist because my prescriptions are up and it is time to check in...geez...I really HATE doctors..have I mentioned that yet?

But the lung doc is pretty cool...nice elderly man...very quiet and peaceful demeaner, soft spoken, and really has helped me a GREAT deal. I like going to him...he always has a kind word and will spend all the time in the world with you that you need. 

Okay...the next bit of news is that for the last couple of days I have been fighting a severe sinus headache...I just know it has to do with allergies...tis the season for all that..but these headaches have got to go...I will also speak to the doc about that one...he can prescribe anything he wants for me...or if I want a referral (like I do for my eyes) he can do that too and WC has to honor it. Ihave my list...

Now since I have not gone to the psych doc...he will not renew my prescriptions until I get a referral...(probably because he is losing money) so of course the anxiety attacks are coming back alot more often and my sleep schedule again is even more screwed up...I sleep for an hour and I am up for 4 or 5...I think in total I get about 4 hours of sleep in a 24 hour period...which does not help with the depression or anxiety or anything else. But right now there is nothing I can do. hunnie found one of those fancy flashlights that you uses the same charger as like drills and such that you can buy...we have a drill one..he found it in front of our garage...INTERESTING....we assume that someone had to be outside and dropped the flashlight when whoever was shocked to see 12 some old adult rotties trying to get at them through the glass windows. rotties will bark their lungs out at people outside our house...however the closer you get the crazier they get...the police no longer come into our yard...when we call them (we had trouble with some neighborhood kids stealing) there is a warning that comes up with our address that says we have several bad dogs and to meet owners on the street. That was at their request not ours. Pizza delivery guys have dropped pizzas when our dogs all of a sudden jump on the window beside the front door...and the mailman NO LONGER comes into the yard to deliver packages...he pulls into the driveway and lays on the horn. My dogs have NEVER attacked anyone to my knowledge...HOWEVER I do not believe that anyone outside of my house wants to risk it!!!! GOOD DOGGIES....

We did have one rottie jump through a window when this lil boy was screaming outside near his mom..but once our rottie saw the mommie hugging her child...our rottie just walked up to them and licked the lil boy...she lives around the corner from us...and she stayed with our rottie until we got home from work...(this was years ago) which was about a 15 min wait. Turns out we had to rush the dog to the vet because she cut a main vein in her leg..the blood was everywhere. We still have that rottie...her name is Ginger....the oldest one we have...and the one who started this puppy factory...she will not let ANYONE hurt a is incredible. One time my nephew decided that Ginger needed a walk...what compelled him to feel that way I have no idea...we do not walk our dogs around the neighborhood...we have a big backyard fenced in for them to go crazy. BUT the lil one opened the gate long enough for him and Ginger to take a walk...I thought he was in bed taking a nap...but he snuck out the back glass doors...I never heard him..and they were gone ... I was checking in on him and he was NO WHERE....of course I freaked out..and could not figure where Ginger was because she would never leave his side...well Allen jumped in the van and searched the neighborhood and found them a few blocks away...there were two men trying to get close to my nephew to ask him questions but Ginger would not let them near him...he was only 4 at the time and his speech was a bit delayed..and he NEVER talked to people he did not when my hunnie arrived the men were so relieved of their wives called the police...Allen just had to say to Ginger to load up (getting into the van) and she went in with no problems and my nephew got in after her. The police recognized my hunnie...(because he is in law enforcement also) so they were just thrilled that nothing serious happened to the child. Ginger protected him with her life...Just a GREAT dog.

Okay...enough stories for now...I think I will go veg out and watch fox news and such...I hope the rest of your week goes smoothly...
Remember to is VERY contagious!!!


Sunday, June 18, 2006








Happy Father's Day to all you great dads out all of you that are sharing this day with your dads and to all of you that are remembering your great dads.

I thought I should share some pics of my dad....he is still around kicking it. I think he is around 83 or so...I never get the age right. I should be talking to him very dad was one who was VERY strict, very traditional, extremely intelligent and a brillant business man. Most of all he did all he could to provide his family with everything he could. To this day...I still call him up when I am trying to make a decision about something major and get his feedback. To me he is truly wise. I will tell you all an inside secret...Since I was a teenager...I have always called my dad "old man". I have no idea why I began calling him that...I guess since we are the closest among all the kids and him..I had to have something that was just between him and me. Well hence the name--Old Man.

To this day--NO ONE else in the family is allowed to call him that...and he will tell them that it is my name to call him and no one else' is that connection between us, something else that makes our bond more closer.

Well...Here are some pics of Old Man:
This is Old Man in Morrocco about twenty something years ago when he and my mom decided to do the Europe trip and try it all.
 Old Man in his backyard before he and Mom moved down south.This was taken almost a year ago.
Old man sitting in a porch chair because all their furniture at this point had been packed getting ready for the big move. Taken almost a year ago.
Taken this past March ... Old man arrived with mom to pick up my daughter for spring break. She spent almost two weeks with them and of course they spoiled her rotten.

I just wanted to share a few pics...I have alot more...but did not want to overwhelm on the loading of pictures. I do hope you all have a great day... Enjoy your family and/or friends and show your love to all those that you care about!!!


Thursday, June 15, 2006


I know again I seem to vanish...seems to be the story of my life.
I do apologize...there are times I get so motivated to write then it just disappears when I actually have the blank page in front of me. Also there are days I just want to scream and that is definitely not something to write about....because I think AOL would terminate my journal for EXTREME foul language....I know a lot of those great words.
Okay....first I will tell you that for about three days AOL played total chaos with my email, my software, my favorites folder and anything else they could do.
I am sure that most of you (maybe not) have ads inside each individual email that you open. Well for me it was quite a shock and it was slowing my computer down incredibly. The ads were also causing errors...and then aol would freeze then I would have to reboot only for the same garbage to happen again. Spoke to online help SEVERAL times...sometimes I actually had to wait 20 minutes for a tech to be available. The first tech said to download the most recent version of aol (which I thought I already had the most recent version) well believe it or worked. NO ADS....I was doing the happy dance.
Only to be disappointed once again...the ads returned about two hours later...went back to tech.. then this time was told the standard answer..."we offer ads to provide others goods and services to our aol customers"...well my patience ran thin and I proceeded to go off...WOW I can write when I am mad...LOL. I then waited to see if something was going to happen to my hunnie's computer and sure enough the ads showed up in his emails....well now it was serious because it was slowing his computer (go figure).
He talks to tech...and gets the same standard answer but he was down right insulting to the tech who was treating him like an idiot...he can write some stuff now when he is upset!!!!
So again I go to tech because I kept freezing...well this tech had me doing all kinds of garbage to all kinds of far everything else about AOL is working for me....and the ADS are here to stay. I am so disappointed in AOL...I really thought that they could not stoop any lower but I was wrong. I have been with AOL going on 10 years...long time...I remember having AOL 3.0 but it just seems that ADS are their lifeline now.
Okay so I spazzed out with AOL for three days...I do not think in all the time I have owned my puter ... I have ever rebooted so much and changed so many settings....I had one tech for two days...we emailed each other ... I would tell her what is going on and she would send me instructions on what to change...bless her lil heart.
So now that my adventures are over with AOL until something else comes up..
I have found if you have the MOST latest version of AOL their browser almost is non is difficult to get a lot of web pages to come up. But if you use internet is lightening fast...also signing in now is lightening fast...I now have to use explorer to view all the journals that I read...but it is so much more quicker and there is no loading time at all for the graphics and such.
NOW...some family news....My son AJ (who is in the army) will finally be done with all the formal training including his MOS on July 14th. He has 72 hours to report to his division in Tennessee and after that he has no idea what is going to happen. He has been calling me a lot. Talking about whatever under the sun...even emailing me. It really has been nice. I think apart of him is homesick and apart of him is disappointed because he thought the army stuff would be so much more.
My other son is losing LOTS of weight...and because of it..he cannot enter the army until after Sept. 15th. For a long time he thought of going into the Marines like my father but he has several friends right now in boot camp or that are just finishing up with boot camp and they are all I think he is going that way.
Now my radical daughter..who is 16 is out of school and driving me crazy...her main project (according to me) is to get her room fixed up before I let her dad go in and just throw things away...she had the puppies in there and they really destroyed a lot. Her own fault...we told her to keep them out...but she did not want them to go anywhere out back then fit through the fence and be lost...this child worries about some crazy stuff.
Which brings me to my next subject...DOGS..I absolutely LOVE animals...BUT we have entirely tooooo many dogs in my house...three females have given birth in the last two weeks and we have puppy fever here...UGH!!! My house nor my nerves cannot take it anymore. My dog gave birth to two of which one did not survive...she had a female pup. My hunnie's dog gave birth to 5 male pups..and another female we have gave birth to three pups last night...we do not know the sexes yet. I am slowly losing my mind over all of this. My hunnie is just fed up period and wants to call the pound to come get them...this is a VERY sore subject in our house. I think that makes 20 dogs altogether here....JUST INSANE!!!!.
Here are some pics of puppy antics:

The lil girl pup sleeping on her mommie's leg.

One of the male pups sticking it's head where it does not belong!!! That can is the mommies not pups.
NOW...some other delightful news is my daughter is getting the driving itch. I have such a problem with her driving and I have no idea why. Her dad lets her drive around our area..she is in an all fire hurry to get her license and take off. Which brings me to the next subject of her car. YES she has a car. My hunnie is using it right now because his jeep is swallowing GAS and we just could not afford it...and her car gets GREAT gas he uses that. She does not have her permit yet...and I am in no rush to let her go to the driving place and get it. HOWEVER she has already started buying stuffies for her car..with my hunnie in tow. She now has matching cloth seat covers...and matching seat belt pads...and matching pockets that hang anywhere in your car for your phone and notepad and whatever else. The AC works GREAT which is a big plus in the sunshine state..the two of them even went out to walmart and put a big time fancy cd/radio/ipod type stereo system with speakers on lay away. The two of them are driving me crazy. Hunnie wants to get her car painted for her birthday as a has some dings and paint peeling but a nice paint job would make it look new...everything else works wonderful (knock on wood)
Here is a pic ofher car:
As you probably already heard...our HURRICANE season has started...ALBERTO was kind...we only got some rain...nothing to really talk about. I really think it is some other state's turn to take on the majority of hurricanes...florida cannot afford anymore. Everyone's insurances have gone up and of course building supplies have risen because there is such a demand for them. Just crazy!!!
Of course the heat has become unbelievable already..the humidity will kick your butt every time. Unfortunately this is just the beginning of the summer heat...and officially summer has not started. UGH UGH UGH!!!!
Okay....I have caught you all up on some details of my life...nothing exciting but I thought I would check in and say Hi and truly I hope everyone is doing well.
THANKS for stopping by and remember to call someone you have not heard from in a long time...your call may just be what they needed.