Tuesday, November 30, 2004







What a GRAND surprise I received yesterday. Lately it has been a bit edgie around here. Not at anything in particular, just trying to get too many things done and not enough time nor energy. I think my hunnie is stressed to the hilt (actually I know he is) because he has had to take on everything I can no longer do. WOW - THAT IS LOVE!!! He is not the type to complain. He just goes with the flow..but things at work are getting hectic and I think it is all starting to pile up on him now. For awhile now I have let him do his own thing...not that he would ever follow a honey-do-list but he has been working on cars and motors and wheeling and dealing and I have let him go at it. I know that working on cars and tearing apart motors is his stress outlet. So I have just let it go. Well obviously he has noticed that life is not as bouncie around here because I am keeping to myself and trying to stay out of his way. So I needed some ink for my printer yesterday and he decided to go to the stores. He took our daughter with him since she also needed a few things to finish up her project.

WELL...I was in for a shock of a lifetime. When they arrived home they came in with loads of bags of goodies. I thought Xmas had arrived early. My hunnie went out and spent WAY too much money on ME. Yes ME. He bought me all kinds of mirrors and glass paints and all new tools so that I can start making stained glass mirrors. I am SO EXCITED.  He bought me enough paints and all to last me quite a while. Well if that was not enough he also bought me a new sticker machine. These machine have been around for a bit. I have the first one that came out...well this one not only makes anything a sticker...but also laminates, makes magnets and such. I am in HEAVEN. I asked him why all the COOL stuff and he said I just want you to be happy and being creative does that. So now you have plenty to be both.WOWOWOWOW...now how BLESSED am I?

I guess he has noticed that I have not pushed him or anything and decided to make it up to me. WOW... I am just way too surprised and thrilled. Our daughter could not stop smiling and she kept asking me if I am happy...and saying "oh mom..we have so much to create now" GOD I JUST LOVE THEM!!!

So as you can see...I had a marvelous  monday... and now the projects are flying through my mind and I am already thinking of more mirrors...lol

I must go and start something...I am itching to be creative. You all have a FABULOUS tuesday!!!


Monday, November 29, 2004








A typical xmas tree in florida...LOL... I will take palm trees over snow days anytime..tho I do miss the snow this time of year..but then I remember my days of living in Buffalo (the snow capital of the world) and remember walking through it just to make it to classes and being snowed in for days and having some serious cabin fever..The only month I never saw it snow in Buffalo was July... that made me nuts.. so I guess I will just take my lil palm trees and be grateful.

Today already started off on the wrong foot sort of speak. My daughter woke up at her regular time for school ( 5:30am) and asked to stay home to finish a major history project that she has been busting her tushie on for two weeks now. She has only had two weeks when the rest of the students have had since the beginning of the year. This teacher wants it to be in book form when they are finished. He wants them bound like books... hmmmmmm now her school is located in one of the most wealthiest areas in central florida...we DO NOT live in such an area...we are at the opposite end of that spectrum. To have a book bound costs a small fortune...so today we must go and do that once we buy the ink needed to print everything out. I feel for the kid. I told her she could stay home..I jsut did not want her to feel embarrassed by the teacher for not having it completed.

We did not get done everything I wanted...too lazy at this point... the weather has gone from quite chilly (for florida) to it's usual hot and humid...perfect weather to catch a cold...so I just stay under the covers and watch football games and such.

I still have christmas presents to get...I have already made some that I must say came out nice...but still have many to buy...balancing finances will be the real trick. Well I am off to go figure out what to do next..I hope you all have a FANTASTIC monday!!!


Saturday, November 27, 2004








First...our THANKSGIVING was absolutely wonderful. So very peaceful and the rib feast was a GRAND success. My hunnie cooked it all along with our daughter...so that is another thing I am so VERY THANKFUL for... They really did a great job!

Now...how many of you actually joined in on the crazed BLACK FRIDAY! All that pushing, shoving, fighting, pulling hair, kicking, God I hope I did not really hurt anyone...LOL...JUST KIDDING!!! You all know me better then that...If I cannot do normal crowds you know I did not even attempt to go anywhere. My hunnie took our daughter to the stores to check out some deals...they really did good...of course hunnie had to spoil the kid again.

They went to one store and found a SUPER deal on biker leather jackets...we are a HUGE BIKER FAMILY so of course this caught my hunnie's attention. He got the child a biker jacket...I am so jealous...it looks grand on her.. He also bought her a new cd/mp3 player. Lord...now what is left for christmas...he said he could not resist. GEEZ!!!

After two stores, they called to tell me the crowds were just too overwhelming and they were going to go out to lunch and then come home. I am glad they got to spend some great time together. I think they really are forming quite the bond... Just what I was hoping for.  We heard from one son... I think he really missed having thanksgiving here...he said he is going to go out of his way no matter what to make it here for christmas... he wants to wake up here christmas morning and do the family thing. Too Cute!!! The other son called today... he is just doing his own thing and working on trucks... that is typical.

Of course I am doing the football thing this weekend...there are not too many weeks left to myfavorite sport...so I am trying to take it all in. I can never get enough football!!! I am off to go make some graphics I need for a website...I hope you all have a fun saturday!!!


Thursday, November 25, 2004












I just wanted to take this opportunity to wish you and yours a very BLESSED and HAPPY THANKSGIVING..always remember those things in which you are thankful for...this year...here is my quick list...






~True Friends

~Waking up Every Morning

~Days without Pain

~Days I feel Healthy

~My Hunnie's Patience

~My Daughter's Devotion

~My boys's Independence

~Our Pets

~Joy felt from within deep in the belly

~nature's colors

~the sun on my face

~beautiful music

~things that make me laugh

~pictures of everything-especially memories

~Soldiers who fight for my freedoms (past and present)

~Food in my house

~roof over my head


~Being LOVED, Receiving LOVE, Giving LOVE

~cool grass to wiggle my feet in

~the gift of being creative

~Happiness in all that is real

~sweet dreams



Eat to your heart's content and remember dessert is a basic neccesity...LOL





Wednesday, November 24, 2004


WOW...tomorrow is the big day. It has been wonderful reading about how everyone is going to spend the holiday... so I thought I would write down what we are going to do here at the old homestead.


For the past 12 years, We have had Thanksgiving Dinner at our house. Everyone in the family came and stayed for 3 or 4 days just eating, visiting and eating. I really enjoyed those times, but because my health has taken a steady decline in the last year, I really could not do another big holiday like that. It usually took us about 2-3 weeks to get ready for all of it. Well since my boys are down with their grandmother and aunt (who need the company), my hunnie and daughter and I wanted to make this holiday a very easy and laid back one. We are not big so much on the turkey as we are on the desserts..LOL So we have decided we are going to stay home and do a big rib feast...the old southern country kind ...with all the fixins just for the 3 of us. I am really looking forward to it. No insanity and baking and cooking for two days and none of the hassles. The pumpkin pies (3) and the cheesecake (1) are done and ready to be devoured. I know this may not sound like a big family get together...but we are realizing that we can do with much more quiet peaceful times instead of the insanity. It will not be the same without my boys...but I am glad they are going to spend this time with their grandmother and aunt...that means alot to them.

My hunnie and daughter went and did all the grocery shopping and so on...they are real troopers. So that is half the battle. My hunnie does not have to work tomorrow so that will make for a great laid back day of spending time together and watching football (which is a tradition here) and then catch some old movies (which is another tradition).

I do not know if I already shared this cartoon with you all so please forgive me if it is a repeat...


Monday, November 22, 2004







YES YES YES...saturday with great aniticipation...we waited for the BIG florida rivalry game to begin..the game started at 7:45 in the evening...all the pre game analysis only made tensions grow...but finally the game started. Now in our house...you can definitely tell that that two teams are followed..the gators and the seminoles...my hunnie and one son love the seminoles...and one son, daughter and of course myself are all for the gators...we have ALL sorts of memorablia from the two teams all over the house.... we are so "obsessed" that we even named our cats..seminole and gator. Of course this is done in fun...and it makes for a GREAT family activity..

Now the point is that whoever wins the BIG game has bragging rights for a YEAR...yes a year. If we were going for a national championship...then there would be a bet of some sort...like dinner somewhere, somethiing of that sort.

Drumroll PLEASE.............




GATORS won...........20-13

This was a truly nail biting, scream at the t.v. exciting night of football.... Of course ...my hunnie is already tired of hearing it ...but if it was the other way around..he would be calling me from work every hour to rub it in...I did no such thing.     YET

Okay...with Thanksgiving around the corner...here is a lil pic from me to you


Have a GREAT monday!!!


Saturday, November 20, 2004




AWWWWW yes...... college football saturday.... I just wanted to write a quick entry to let you all know I will be glued to the boob tube all day watching where the teams fall in the BCS... My fingers are still crossed for the GATORS



My legs are still extremely swollen (the joints) so I am going to kick back  and enjoy as much football   as my lil mind can take...as I am writing this...Miami is killing wake forest...very sad!

I hope you all do something today that brings you joy and a few laughs...  See ya in the end zone!!!


Friday, November 19, 2004





It feels great to have the weekend here. Hopefully all will go smoothly now...My daughter had been home for two days from school because of a stomach virus ..I was getting a bit worried there...but today she woke up in grand fashion and could not wait to get to school.  When she came home she had a MARVELOUS surprise for us...a progress report...this is sent out half way through the quarter/semester to let you know where your child stands in each class. Well she came home with 6 A's and 1 C...the C is in algebra. Math was never her strong suit but I am happy with it because at least she is not failing that class. If she remains with her grades as such ... she will make honor roll...of course you know what that means...LOTS of celebrating on this end.

I am so HAPPY for her...she is flying on cloud nine

Now I must tell you about her dog THOR...his nickname is horsehead because his head is HUGE...he knocks people over with it...that dog responds to her and her only. God help anyone who tries to get to her...they will be missing some limbs. One time Thor got loose..(which is not a good thing) and took off down the road...(hunting himself a girlfriend) well Crystalyn caught up with him but had no leash to bring him back...he is a monster to control without a leash..he has been known to drag people. Well a man came by and approached my daughter tooooo quickly trying to give a cellphone to call us to bring her a leash and the dog lunged at him. The dog did not touch him because Crystalyn had him held but that man swore to my hunnie that the dog would not allow anyone near my daughter to help her or anything...
But that is not the story I wanted to tell you...earlier this week...Crystalyn went to bring the dogs in from outside...they played for a while...and of course her dog has to be stubborn..he likes her to chase him...it is a nightly ritual..well this time he was sneaking slowly up to her and in the dark could not really see what was up...so she went inside the door and THOR jumped on her when she turned around with a MASSIVELY HUGE rat hanging out of his mouth. He brought a gift home for her. All I heard was screaming...she came running into the puter room and shut the door going crazy that the dog brought a rat in...all I could do was laugh       I know that is terrible but that dog was jumping on the door to the puter room with the darn rat in his mouth wanting to give it to my daughter..
NOW...of course the rat was dead...probably died of shock when it saw the huge horse head going after it...so my daughter had to try and get the rat away from her dog to go throw it away in the garbage cans outside. That was a site to see...That dog teased my daughter with the rat for what seemed a good half hour. I just sat and laughed my tushie off  ..it was a show I would pay to see.

Okay...here is THOR when she first got him..

This is THOR now!!!

Have a WONDERFUL weekend all!!!


Wednesday, November 17, 2004



I know that I tend to disappear for a time but when I get so overwhelmed by my health it is the only thing I can do ...I have to keep to myself and regroup sort of speak. The pain just gets too intense to deal with anything else. That is what makes me such a home body...

Okay...today I am able to sit here and write a few lines and just chit chat.  I have been trying to rest...To be honest I am thrilled that my live in company has not been around for a few weeks now. I just CANNOT deal with her garbage and not having that stress has been wonderful. So- believe it or not-I tend to "heal" faster. I love my nephew..there is no doubt about that. His mother tho needs some professional help...she uses that poor child as an excuse and to get her way and to manipulate people. It is really getting old. My hunnie is fixing to take her things and put them out in the garbage. All of her things are here. Her stuff is sprawled over three rooms and the garage. She has made no effort to get any of it...but she will be sorry when it is all gone. He has no more patience to deal with her. I do not blame him.

Well...outside of that...my father decided to inform me that he and my mother are probably going to move to Naples (south florida) near my brother and sister. Normally you would think that this is grand...but truly it is not. My father thinks that he fits inside their lives. But both my brother and sister do not have the time for my folks because their lives are sooooo busy. So the novelty of my parents being down there will wear off after a couple of weeks and then they will forget about my folks. I am not trying to toot my own horn but I am the kid who has been there for my folks 24/7. My dad has Lupus and my mom has the onset of alzheimers...so I am constantly checking in on them and helping them with everyday life. My siblings cannot even remember my folks on days like birthdays and mother's or father's day. It is sad. I am really scared for my folks. They really will not have a support system down there...my mom already gets very disallussioned as to her where abouts and being in a new area will only make things worse. My father puts alot of faith into my siblings being there and makes TONS of excuses for them when they forget or say something rude. But if I miss calling them somepart during the day...my father goes off. GO FIGURE!!!


My dad and I also spoke about my daughter and her turning 15 and this state allowing 15 year olds to get their license...geeez!!! Well now he wants to look around for a car for her before he moves..LORD have mercy...that man spoils the life out of her. He tries to claim that he does not because I would not allow him but he is full of hot air. He said the house they are getting down south has two bedrooms and of course one is for her. That is why he is getting her a car so that she can drive down there and spend the summers with him. Now I have heard it all. I was not allowed to have a car to myself until I was in my last year of college. I keep trying to remind him that I was born first but he said he is done with me...LOL.

Well I am going back to lay down before my legs start throbbing again and the coughing gives me a headache. Have a GRAND thursday!!!


Sunday, November 14, 2004


It is my turn to rant and rave....so if you do not want to see this side of me...please do not read any further...You Have Been Warned.



For the past couple of days- I really have struggled with myself emotionally. The bottom line is that I am sick and tired of being SICK AND TIRED. I am totally fustrated with walking across my house and being totally out of breath. I am tired of sitting every few feet because I cannot breathe. I am tired that when I go to stores if there are no electric carts or we did not bring my wheelchair then I cannot go in because I will never last past the first two minutes. I am so ANGRY at my Ex-employee (the state) because they allowed the black mold to grow and kept covering it with paint only to make so many people sick. I am so ANGRY that the black mold has destroyed my lungs so much that I am no longer the person I used to be. It has gotten to the point where I am tired of being me. PLEASE do not think this is a pity party...far from it...I need to vent and rant and work through all this because it is eating me up.I am on 14 different medications a day for the rest of my very shortened life. I always have to be on oxygen whenever I am not eating or outside. I am tired of not being the person I used to be.

There are times I really wonder WHY the hell my hunnie sticks around...I am of no use to him...I can barely take care of myself. I cannot even walk into the kitchen and get myself a drink because I run out of breath. I am stressed to the hilt and cannot snap out of it. I am tired of the pain, the swollen legs, the swollen joints, the stiffness, the out of control weight gain because of the meds, the skin conditions that have arisen due to the meds. My list could go on forever...I am just TIRED.

I either sleep 20 out of 24 hours a day or I only sleep 2 to 3 hours in a 3 day span. All I have done for the last two days is CRY. Yes darn it cry. I am tired of that too. Crying does not solve anything but emotionally I am drained and have nothing left to fight with.

I do not expect any one to understand...I just want me to understand. I even go see a psychiatrist because learning that you have a terminal illness does not go over easy. Learning that you will never be who you want or do what you want is not easy to live with. But I find that the psychiatrist (who also put me on meds for severe depression) just wants me to know that the meds will help....GEEEEEEZ!!

My memory is shot...I cannot remember most things for the life of me. If I do not write everything down then sure enough it will be lost in my thoughts. I am tired of living like a hermit but have no choice in the matter. I am tired of being careful not to bring it up about being sick too much because NO ONE wants to hear it...people in general do not want to deal with someone who will not be around or that are so sick that the sickness is such a huge part of their lives.

I do not go out to stores and such (VERY VERY RARELY) because I do not want to see the look in other people's eyes when they see me. It is so DEVASTATING.


Friday, November 12, 2004


I was cruising through the internet...and come to find out that the northern lights are hitting some great areas..at least a couple of days ago they did...so I thought I would share some pics I found with you.

This amazing green arc of aurora occured on the evening of November 7, 2004 between 6:30 pm CST  and 7 p.m. CST . It lasted nearly 15 minutes and reached from horizon to horizon. Shot at the Douglas Observatory in Warrensburg, Missorui.  



Taken from the skies above alaska...how awesome is that. The colors are called ribbons... From what I could read about it.... northern lights are caused by the sudden energy of a sunspot...it amazes me.  


Thursday, November 11, 2004


This is my lil dedication to all those who have served and are serving this GREAT country of ours...
If you have a moment...or make a moment and THANK A VET today!!!




Veterans' Day (formerly Armistice Day)
   November 11, is the anniversary of the Armistice which was signed in the Forest of Compiegne by the Allies and the Germans in 1918, ending World War I, after four years of conflict. 
   At 5 A.M. on Monday, November 11, 1918 the Germans signed the Armistice, an order was issued for all firing to cease; so the hostilities of the First World War ended.  This day began with the laying down of arms, blowing of whistles, impromptu parades, closing of places of business.  All over the globe there were many demonstrations; no doubt the world has never before witnessed such rejoicing.
   In November of 1919, President Woodrow Wilson issued his Armistice Day proclamation.  The last paragraph set the tone for future observances:

To us in America, the reflections of Armistice Day will be filled with solemn pride in the heroism of those who died in the country's service and with gratitude for the victory, both because of the thing from which it has freed us and because of the opportunity it has given America to show her sympathy with peace and justice in the councils of the nation.

   In 1927 Congress issued a resolution requesting President Calvin Coolidge to issue a proclamation calling upon officials to display the Flag of the United States on all government buildings on November 11, and inviting the people to observe the day in schools and churches...But it was not until 1938 that Congress passed a bill that each November 11 "shall be dedicated to the cause of world peace and ...hereafter celebrated and known as Armistice Day." 
   That same year President Franklin D. Roosevelt signed a bill making the day a legal holiday in the District of Columbia. For sixteen years the United States formally observed Armistice Day, with impressive ceremonies at the Tomb of the Unknown Soldier, where the Chief Executive or his representative placed a wreath.  In many other communities, the American Legion was in charge of the observance, which included parades and religious services.  At 11 A.M. all traffic stopped, in tribute to the dead, then volleys were fired and taps sounded.
   After World War II, there were many new veterans who had little or no association with World War I.  The word, "armistice," means simply a truce; therefore as years passed, the significance of the name of this holiday changed.  Leaders of Veterans' groups decided to try to correct this and make November 11 the time to honor all who had fought in various American wars, not just in World War I.
   In Emporia, Kansas, on November 11, 1953, instead of an Armistice Day program, there was a Veterans' Day observance.  Ed Rees, of Emporia, was so impressed that he introduced a bill into the House to change the name to Veterans' Day.  After this passed, Mr. Rees wrote to all state governors and asked for their approval and cooperation in observing the changed holiday.  The name was changed to Veterans' Day by Act of Congress on May 24, 1954.  In October of that year, President Eisenhower called on all citizens to observe the day by remembering the sacrifices of all those who fought so gallantly, and through rededication to the task of promoting an enduring peace.  The President referred to the change of name to Veterans' Day in honor of the servicemen of all America's wars. 
MOST IMPORTANTLY: I would like to THANK my dad for serving his country...In WWII with the Marines...   PEACE!!!!

Wednesday, November 10, 2004


As promised...Here are a couple of pictures of my lil girl...not so little anymore...











Her first day of school behind her....and just the beginning of her High School years..

Okay forget that her jacket is a bit wet in front...she was attacked by 7 dogs after they drank water...what a way to start the day...Here is my sweetie with CLYDE...the high school teddy that her dad gave her....Too Cute!!!


Tuesday, November 9, 2004


WOW...it is early tuesday morning and the time has just flown by before my eyes-sort of speak. I slept the entire weekend...that flu is really trying to bring me down. I have no idea why I have been fighting it for what seems forever at this point...but I could do nothing to stay awake...You know it has got to be bad for me to miss every single football game. I know my gators won (yea yea yea-::jumping up and down::) but I did not get to see it. Mind you I am still exhausted. It seems that no matter what I do I cannot get enough sleep. It is driving me crazy. I think my body has given into all the medications I take and the effects, after all this time are finally hitting me. GEEEEZ!!

Okay..now..my daughter has had TWO official days of school and is in HEAVEN. Along with some basic classes, she is taking two art classes so she thinks she has won the lottery. She has been designing her own clothes and jewelry for a few years now so that just fit right into her life. She has met up with some old friends-so she is a HAPPY CAMPER...of course they have tons of gossip and news to catch up on. She is still getting used to the size of the school which is enormous. But is enjoying the fact that she is in high school and feels like a big shot. Just too cute. I even bought her some simple plain make up so that she would not sneak behind our backs and make herself look like a "clown". She thinks now I am the BEST mom in the universe because I did that...and her dad even agreed (shock of my life) because the stuff is plain but nice.

Today believe it or not...her dad bought her a LARGE teddy bear....the thing stands about 3-3 1/2 feet tall. It is as soft as cotton...he named it Clyde. It was a CONGRATS kind of gift for hanging tough getting into high school and for all the hard work she did in home school. She is IN LOVE!!! The darn thing is in bed with her and has it's own pillows and shares a comforter. Just too gosh darn cute. She has collected teddies (among other things) since she can remember...so this teddy just made the hit parade of her collection. She even made a comment on how it has a bigger head then her rottie (THOR) and that she cannot believe. LOL.

NOW...the big step today is that I finally mustered up some courage and strength and asked my hunnie to take me out... he just about had a heart attack. I have not been out of this house since August when hurricane Charley hit. I just wanted to do something nice for him. So I took my hunnie out to breakfast. WOW...and did we eat...it was great!!!! Of course being out made me truly nervous...but I held it together really well. We went window shopping and decided that on wednesday (which is half day at school here) we would pick up the kid from school and go to a huge arts and crafts store that we spotted. So of course the kid and I are going to have a blast spending money in there...LOL

After breakfast, and going to the bank, and window shopping, we had to stop at the grocery store and pick up a few things...that is where hunnie spotted the teddy. I even managed to sneak in some snacks for the kid that she likes for afterschool. The dogs freaked when we got home because they have never seen me outside of the house, especially near a car..coming or going. All you could hear was howling...now just imagine 4 large rotties 3 puppie rotties and 8 1 month pups all howling....it was deafening. I bet the neighbors love us tho...LOL

Okay...Since I missed saying anything last week about the elections...here is my lil dedication to it....

From this   to this

LOLOLOLOLOL...I just had to do it!!!!

You all have a GRAND tuesday!!!

Friday, November 5, 2004








FINALLY....between computers and phone calls and a wonderful registrar at the high school, my daughter is officially in Public High School. 

Today is her first day!!!
She is soooo excited that she barely got any sleep. She is very excited about seeing all her friends there and trying out a new life. I am thrilled for her....but of course my heart is breaking. The joy I saw in her eyes is something I will remember for a very long time. She is just coming into the second quarter so the registrar said she really has not much to catch up on and has arranged for her to have a tour of the school today and get her ID and text books  and so on.

Okay..now I will sit here and wait for her to come home and tell me  all about her GREAT day!!!...I will post a pic  of her with her new outfit as soon as I upload it. So now I will have to find ways to occupy my time because I was spending my day homeschooling...NOW what??? Well let me go see what kind of trouble I can get into. Have an AWESOME friday!!!


Wednesday, November 3, 2004


I am typing this at 4:33 in the morning... still even tho it looks like President Bush has been re-elected...not one news program will call it because Kerry's side is now claiming that the provisional ballots need to be counted - that will make them the winners. Hopefully the mess will not end up in the lap of Florida because that really caused alot of problems here. Alot of ill feelings. Anyway...I received the following comics of maxine in my email last evening and wanted to share them with all of you...at least I needed the comic relief.

Tuesday, November 2, 2004


I do not care who you vote for....I believe (in my own opinion) that if you want to complain, rant, rave, whine, brag etc...for the next four years then you need to go out there and VOTE!!!

It is a honor, priviledge and a RIGHT!!!