Saturday, July 30, 2005





Today I wanted to wish my parents a very very HAPPY 56TH WEDDING ANNIVERSARY. I am amazed that anyone has been together for 56 years but obviously they have so it can be done. Here they are the lil cuties:

of course their granddaughter is in the middle... I heard from them again last night...again I could only cry afterwards..this is the first time my parents have ever been away from my daughter...they have been with her since the day she was born and put in the neonatal icu dad was the first to hold her before me. They have been involved in her life always and I think that they are feeling very empty and lonely without her. During the summers she usually spends weekends with them so that she could go swimming and they get to spoil her. But now that they moved...she is no longer just 25 minutes away.

It does upset me to hear the loneliness in their voices...they are trying to keep busy but now that the moving chaos and everyone helping them settle in is over...they are starting to feel the loneliness...I miss them a great deal and I will always miss my mom's great dinners.
I realize we could visit them but it is not that easy since Allen works at a prison. There everything has to be planned 6 months in advance and still that does not guarentee you the time off.

All my life I have been the one who has stuck by my parents and have helped them and kept them company and just been there for them. Now I am no longer just a short drive away and it bothers me as much as it bothers them.
I realize this sounds like a self pity party and I am is just the mood I am in and how I feel at the moment.

Remember to HUG someone you LOVE.

Thursday, July 28, 2005








I just want to take this opportunity to wish my best friend, my knight in white armor, my soul mate...the LOVE of my life...a VERY VERY HAPPY BIRTHDAY.

I hope your day is filled with many wonderful surprises and much joy...and that all your wishes come true.
You have made each day that we have been together a dream come true...Your LOVE to me and how you make me feel is beyond mere words. I look so forward to growing old together and living our dreams.


With all the LOVE in my heart-


                  I do hope you all are having a grand week...and staying cool. The weather guys here say that the temps are around 98 but with the heat index has been reading between 103-108. I think that is hot enough. In that kind of heat I just do not know how people can breathe outside. I heard from my parents....they are still trying to get settled in. My sister has been helping them set up their new place ( she is an interior decorator) and my brother has been by fixing whatever they need. They also have been invited to dinner by my sister for a few nights so I think that is grand. I was doing fine with dealing with them moving until my dad got sentimental and then of course I cried for quite some time. Anyway...I think finally my hunnie is going to take my desktop computer finally to the tech guys to get it fixed...I told them just wiped out the hard drive and I will start new again. I saved what I could so I am ok with it. Hopefully it will not cost alot to get it fixed. I love my laptop but to be honest I miss my was just much more comfortable and I miss my printer and such. Well this week has been tax free week. I do not know if they have this where you all are but for a week to 10 days the state does not charge taxes for clothing under 50 dollars or school supplies under 50 help families get their kids ready for school...everyone benefits from the tax free time...of course the stores are jammed packed but it does save some money. That is what matters. Every year they have this....I never heard of such a thing until I moved down to florida. Well I think I will go watch the news and see what is going on in the world around me...Until Next Time--- Remember to HUG someone you LOVE!!!!



Friday, July 22, 2005


                  It's finally over....yesterday my hunnie and a friend of his packed up  my parents house and moved them south. I wish it was that simple but it was not. We have been going there at least twice a week to get things packed and whatever my parents came across that they did not want they would give us. Well that would be fine and well but apparently they never packed their closets or dresser draws and such (which we did not go into because that is their privacy) so it took quite a while to pack up that stuff...altogether with some chaos thrown in the middle of it took them 7 hours to pack up the house into a u-haul truck. After all was in there was not even enough room to put a shoebox inside of the truck.. So as a result of so much parents had us take all the extra stuffies for ourselves because they did not want to leave anything for the new owners. The day before the move we were at my parents house doing the usual packing and my dad got a phone call from the real estate agent that the closing has been delayed until 3 the next afternoon. Apparently this is the 4th time that the closing has changed. It was suppose to be at 10 in the morning. But now this new time is causing a problem because the u-haul is rented based on time and both allen and his friend have to work on friday. Also the rent a car waiting for them down south when they turn in the truck is on a time schedule. So now my dad is fuming...he really went nuts on the agent .... I felt bad for the agent but money talks and it is not fair my dad has to spend more because the buyers cannot get it together by 10. Well ... all things not being even... what should have been a planned out move (which it was) turned out to be an overnight stay downsouth of which allen, his friend and the truck did not arrived until 3 in the morning. But as of right now they should be on their way home....They all sound like they are in good spirits so that is a good sign...and believe it or sister was there at the apartment first thing this morning to feed the hungry men and my brother showed up to help unpack the truck and my sister and her daughter are spending the whole afternoon there to unpack everything and get the place set up and cleaned up so it looks like home. Of course I miss my parents already but there was nothing I could do to prevent them from leaving and maybe the change of place will help them both. DID I MENTION....that the night before they moved, while we were still there....we sat down to eat some sandwiches and when my dad went to sit down he fell. He really did a nice job banging up his arm and side....he just his balance and footing...made me so nervous...and Allen jumped up to get him off the floor... he was shaking beyond belief (my dad) heart went out to him. WELL - I think that pretty much describes some up to date news on my end... I did take pics but I still have to upload them. I would have had them uploaded already but the puppies chewed my camera usb cable...gotta love the lil ones... Until Next time---remember to HUG someone you LOVE!!!!  




Wednesday, July 13, 2005


        AH....long time no hear from....but I am still around and kicking. Life has gotten the better of me since the last time I was able to journal. My mind has really been scattered with my parents moving...which is in one week. I am still devastated but I cannot blame them getting a duplex rent free. I would too if I had the opportunity. I just worry because I know my brother and sister will not keep tabs on my be honest I do not think they will even visit them that often and my parents will only be about 15 minutes from each of them. My mom has already told me that she feels lonely because there is nothing down there for people their age...which is is a town of young couples raising their children...not retired peeps. My heart really goes out to my mom. All my dad talks about is having an extra bedroom for my daughter to visit them on long weekends and summers. My daughter loves her grandparents but she does not feel comfortable with most in my family...she finds them very uppity and not her style. We have been to my parents house back and forth for the packing and getting rid of stuff and my parents giving us alot of stuff. I do appreciate it but I would rather have my parents stay here. (sigh) Also at the same time we are still painting and such around our own has been slow but so far we are happy with what is done...we are moving my puter room...I have a dinning room that we do not use as a dinning room...I am just not a dinning room we are going to make that our puter room and craft should be really nice when we get done...of course I will take pictures to share. My daughter's bathroom is coming is cute...still have some stenciling left to do...when it is done again I will take some pics to share. Unfortunately in between all of that...I came down with a sinus infection and my daughter had some sort of stomach we had to stop production for a while. Now of course I am sure you all have heard of the hurricanes that are affecting the west side of far (thank God) nothing has hit us directly...but we have had SO MUCH RAIN...we need a canoe at this point to get around our yard and sometimes down the road. When I first moved to florida- I never really heard of hurricanes hitting this state...then all of a sudden I am constantly face to face with it. The only good thing this year is we are prepared with a at least we can stay at our house without having to depend on anyone. Well I have gone to the psychiatrist again...once a month as usual and he has decided that now is the time for therapy..go I start seeing a therapist next month...this should be interesting. Well I think that about does it for the hot topics going on around here...I do hope you all are doing well...I have been around to all my regular journals but just have not had the time to leave comments or anything...but I will....promise. You all take care and remember to HUG someone you LOVE!!!! PEACE!!!