Thursday, May 4, 2006

JUST TIRED

 

 

 

 

Of course I am still here....Just feeling totally exhausted. Again sleeping my life away. Geez... I like to sleep but this is getting ridiculous. ANYWAY... as you all already know I am extremely agoraphobic....well that being said...change is not an easy thing to deal with...more so.
Now...my hunnie and son are in South Carolina waiting to go to our other son's army boot camp graduation. I so wish I was "normal" so I could have gone...but fear has gotten the best of me. So with my hunnie gone...of course that change in my life schedule and him not here to run interference for me...leaves me totally stressed out. The anxiety attacks are out of control right now. He is not here to answer the phone or door or check out whatever is going on outside. My daughter is here...but she is in school all day...so from 6:30am to 2:50pm...I feel crazed.

Okay...onward...I finally got my daughter to take some pics of the angel statue that her and my hunnie gave me for Mother's Day!!! I absolutely love it:

I think she is beautiful...if I get a better picture I will upload it...but for now this one will have to do.
Have you heard about the wild fires happening around here? Again fire season is on the rise...they have been closing and opening two major roadways here for the past two days...hopefully the fires will stay exactly where they are....no homes have been affected (tho it has come close) no one hurt...so far just alot of brush has burned.

I have read some journals that post 10 good things....I think I am going to try that next time...I actually have to think about it. I think it would be a positive thing for me to definitely post 10 good things on a steady basis...make my mind think upon happy thoughts...

Well I hope you all have a TERRIFIC thursday and remember to be kind to others..you never know just how much that may heal them.

PEACE!!!

6 comments:

Anonymous said...

AH Im getting to where I stay home from most things. I dont go to showers or any social functions like I use to and I feel so anxious when I am at meetings and things.
that is a pretty statue very pretty and peaceful

Anonymous said...

Beautiful Statue!
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Anonymous said...

I have also missed out on things because of anxiety and panic attacks.

The statue is beautiful.

Kathy

Anonymous said...

I think there is a lot of us rgat suhher from that. Thanks to Brook I am getting out again.

Anonymous said...

I am the same way with my anxieties it's just awful to live with...I pass up many invitations because I just can't get myself to go...and my worst is with driving...i'm at the point now where it's been over a year since I last drove...

Anonymous said...

You sound like my Mom. She hates anything that is outside her own small world. She will go into the yard but, only because it is walled in to a hight of 12 feet. I didn't know there was an Army Boot Camp in South Carolina. Tell your son I said GOOD LUCK. I enjoyed my military time and it sure helped me grow up. Thanks for surfing in to my Journal. I hope you will stop by again. My Regards,