I realize I have not been around adding any new entries...after Christmas I was truly exhausted. It sounds strange but it is like all the celebrating is over and finally I could relax...and I just did not have the motivation nor the inspiration to write anything. Sometimes I feel like I am just rambling on...I guess that is ok because it is my journal...but I hate sounding dumb.
Anyway...I have been reflecting quiet abit on the past year. It was a year I was not fully prepared for. But in retrospect...a very loving and happy year. Now for the year ahead...I know that many people make new year resolutions...and I usually do...but since my illness has taken over my life even more...and my time is becoming more limited...the only thing I want is to live another year. I want to share the year with my daughter, my boys and my hunnie...I want to live through so many wonderful times that the memories burn into my mind. I want to wake up every morning and see only the positive ahead of me. Those are my resolutions.
I have always been quite fond of Erma Brombeck...I always enjoyed reading her columns and books and listening to her during interviews...she was a very funny and upfront kind of person...and when she was diagnosed with cancer - her bravery and courage really inspired so many others...so my inspirational piece comes from the grand lady herself...it really hits home for me...I hope it brings a tug at your heart for you.
In case I am not able to get back online...I want to wish you and yours...a very very HAPPY NEW YEAR...and may the year be filled with many BEAUTIFUL memories...MUCH LOVE, and JOYOUS PEACE!!!

IF I HAD MY LIFE TO LIVE OVER 
- by Erma Bombeck
(written after she found out she was dying from cancer).
I would have gone to bed when I was sick instead of pretending the earth would go into a holding pattern if I weren't there for the day.
I would have burned the pink candle sculpted like a rose before it melted in storage.
I would have talked less and listened more.
I would have invited friends over to dinner even if the carpet was stained, or the sofa faded.
I would have eaten the popcorn in the 'good' living room and worried much less about the dirt when someone wanted to light a fire in the fireplace.
I would have taken the time to listen to my grandfather ramble about his youth.
I would have shared more of the responsibility carried by my husband.
I would never have insisted the car windows be rolled up on a summer day because my hair had just been teased and sprayed.
I would have sat on the lawn with my grass stains.
I would have cried and laughed less while watching television and more while watching life.
I would never have bought anything just because it was practical, wouldn't show soil, or was guaranteed to last a lifetime.
Instead of wishing away nine months of pregnancy, I'd have cherished every moment and realized that the wonderment growing inside me was the only chance in life to assist God in a miracle.
When my kids kissed me impetuously, I would never have said, "Later. Now go get washed up for dinner." There would have been more "I love you's."
More "I'm sorry's."
But mostly, given another shot at life, I would seize every minute...look at it and really see it ... live it .and never give it back.
Stop sweating the small stuff.
Don't worry about who doesn't like you, who has more, or who's doing what.
Instead, let's cherish the relationships we have with those who do love us.
Let's think about what God HAS blessed us with. And what we are doing each day. I hope you all have a blessed day.

 





 here for the last couple of days. Believe it or not...it got down to the high 20's low 30's...2 nights in a row. That is just wild for Florida. Well of course..as soon as that happens...tomorrow it should be in the high 70's. The weather scale here can drive you crazy...No wonder so many people are sick...you never know what the weather is going to be like from one day to the next. Then this weekend it is suppose to be COLDER then it got the last two nights...Geezzzz!!! I am going into hibernation.
 here for the last couple of days. Believe it or not...it got down to the high 20's low 30's...2 nights in a row. That is just wild for Florida. Well of course..as soon as that happens...tomorrow it should be in the high 70's. The weather scale here can drive you crazy...No wonder so many people are sick...you never know what the weather is going to be like from one day to the next. Then this weekend it is suppose to be COLDER then it got the last two nights...Geezzzz!!! I am going into hibernation. 








 
   
 really enjoyed those times, but because my health has taken a steady decline in the last year, I really could not do another big holiday like that. It usually took us about 2-3 weeks to get ready for all of it. Well since my boys are down with their grandmother and aunt (who need the company), my hunnie and daughter and I wanted to make this holiday a very easy and laid back one. We are not big so much on the turkey as we are on the desserts..LOL So we have decided we are going to stay home and do a big rib feast...the old southern country kind ..
 really enjoyed those times, but because my health has taken a steady decline in the last year, I really could not do another big holiday like that. It usually took us about 2-3 weeks to get ready for all of it. Well since my boys are down with their grandmother and aunt (who need the company), my hunnie and daughter and I wanted to make this holiday a very easy and laid back one. We are not big so much on the turkey as we are on the desserts..LOL So we have decided we are going to stay home and do a big rib feast...the old southern country kind .. .with all the fixins just for the 3 of us. I am really looking forward to it. No insanity and baking and cooking for two days and none of the hassles. The pumpkin pies (3) and the cheesecake (1) are done and ready to be devoured. I know this may not sound like a big family get together...but we are realizing that we can do with much more quiet peaceful times instead of the insanity. It will not be the same without my boys...but I am glad they are going to spend this time with their grandmother and aunt...that means alot to them.
.with all the fixins just for the 3 of us. I am really looking forward to it. No insanity and baking and cooking for two days and none of the hassles. The pumpkin pies (3) and the cheesecake (1) are done and ready to be devoured. I know this may not sound like a big family get together...but we are realizing that we can do with much more quiet peaceful times instead of the insanity. It will not be the same without my boys...but I am glad they are going to spend this time with their grandmother and aunt...that means alot to them.


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 GO GATORS!!!
  GO GATORS!!! and enjoy as much football
 and enjoy as much football 
 as my lil mind can take...as I am writing this...Miami is killing wake forest...very sad!
  as my lil mind can take...as I am writing this...Miami is killing wake forest...very sad! 
  
  ..I was getting a bit worried there...but today she woke up in grand fashion and could not wait to get to school.
 ..I was getting a bit worried there...but today she woke up in grand fashion and could not wait to get to school.  When she came home she had a MARVELOUS surprise for us...a progress report...this is sent out half way through the quarter/semester to let you know where your child stands in each class. Well she came home with 6 A's and 1 C...the C is in algebra. Math was never her strong suit but I am happy with it because at least she is not failing that class. If she remains with her grades as such ... she will make honor roll...of course you know what that means...LOTS of celebrating on this end.
 When she came home she had a MARVELOUS surprise for us...a progress report...this is sent out half way through the quarter/semester to let you know where your child stands in each class. Well she came home with 6 A's and 1 C...the C is in algebra. Math was never her strong suit but I am happy with it because at least she is not failing that class. If she remains with her grades as such ... she will make honor roll...of course you know what that means...LOTS of celebrating on this end.

 
   
   I know that is terrible but that dog was jumping on the door to the puter room with the darn rat in his mouth wanting to give it to my daughter..
  I know that is terrible but that dog was jumping on the door to the puter room with the darn rat in his mouth wanting to give it to my daughter.. ..it was a show I would pay to see.
  ..it was a show I would pay to see.



 That is what makes me such a home body...
 That is what makes me such a home body...  I have been trying to rest...To be honest I am thrilled that my live in company has not been around for a few weeks now. I just CANNOT deal with her garbage and not having that stress has been wonderful. So- believe it or not-I tend to "heal" faster. I love my nephew..there is no doubt about that. His mother tho needs some professional help...she uses that poor child as an excuse and to get her way and to manipulate people. It is really getting old. My hunnie is fixing to take her things and put them out in the garbage. All of her things are here. Her stuff is sprawled over three rooms and the garage. She has made no effort to get any of it...but she will be sorry when it is all gone. He has no more patience to deal with her. I do not blame him.
  I have been trying to rest...To be honest I am thrilled that my live in company has not been around for a few weeks now. I just CANNOT deal with her garbage and not having that stress has been wonderful. So- believe it or not-I tend to "heal" faster. I love my nephew..there is no doubt about that. His mother tho needs some professional help...she uses that poor child as an excuse and to get her way and to manipulate people. It is really getting old. My hunnie is fixing to take her things and put them out in the garbage. All of her things are here. Her stuff is sprawled over three rooms and the garage. She has made no effort to get any of it...but she will be sorry when it is all gone. He has no more patience to deal with her. I do not blame him.

